Aug 21-27, '05

(August, 2005)

I return my blog to its old address. NDN tells me to hook up with a "sketchy guy in the Rambles." I contemplate the end of summer and hang out with Dan and his friends at Cheers. Ben offers to fix my computer. My mom overworks me, helping her prepare for a BBQ. BigSis quarrels with my aunt. B and I go to choral evensong. Narc and I spend a night together out, but don't have sex and I'm bored. Later, Narc and I hang out in my neighborhood. We fight about the jukebox and I leave him at the bar. The next night, I call JerBer and then go to see BarMan's show at CBGB's with Pati and we take Ecstasy, do medicine and drink a lot. We end up at Narc's apartment along with BulgarianGuy. I audition for a new choir and get in. I bump into JFig at Cheers and later go to see Narc at the Tavern. We meet Luis, a soldier on leave. Narc and I have our worst night ever-- violence I don't care to detail here. I decide never to see him again. I leave my shirt there. BigSis and I go to the beach the next day.

Aug 14-20, '05

(August, 2005)

NDN has a Korean BBQ dinner and I bump into the Sussex girls. I meet Narc at the Tavern. We quarrel, I tell him I love him and he calls me "hysterical Hyde." We make up the next day. I bump into Crys at Cheers. He gets kicked out and banned from the bar. I have dinner with Jake and his girlfriend. My uncle passes away. I declare I need an "opposite day!" I go to Cheers with Dan. I go out with BulgarianGuy, BarMan and ThursdayGirl and meet her brother downtown. I decide to take my blog down. I start a new secret blog. Hammer thinks I need help with my drinking and we get into a huge fight. I go to my uncle's funeral. LilSis gets engaged. I start to feel like Narc doesn't care about me. I fight with B. It's a rough week!

Aug 7-13, '05

(August, 2005)

We get back from CA on the 9th. I text Narc that I'm back and that I brought him wine from Napa. I wait for him to call but don't hear from him until nearly 4:00 am. He leaves a million messages for me, but I'm passed out on the bathroom floor. I don't make it to see him until 7:30 am the next morning. That evening, I leave to hang out with B. Narc calls to tell me about the "New Yorker" magazine search for the "perfect man." NDN throws a Korean BBQ dinner party. I meet the girls from Sussex and see Oc. I drink too much and end up at Narc's. The next morning there's blood on the sheets and bruises on my thighs. My stepbrother gets another infection. I go to see my Great Uncle dying in the hospital.

Jul 31-Aug 6, '05

(August, 2005)

Hammer and I go to the museum, shopping and take a paddleboat ride. Narc calls me and when I get back to the city I go to see him. We kiss for the first time in a long time. Perfect!!! (And SO intense!) I buy a new cell phone. Dan and I hang out and I bump into Tia at Manchester. She gives me lines in the bathroom. I get uncomfortable about the "love" thing with Dan. I go down to see Narc shortly after. Narc and I have Indian buffet for lunch. I take off for CA with my family for KW's wedding.