Mar 20-26, '05

(March, 2005)

Narc calls me and tells met hat he misses me. We reunite and have sex, during which he tells me to "love him." I refuse to stay the night and he gets pissed off at me. The FourthFloorGirls want to set me up with someone they met at the moveis. IrishBird and I quarrel when I try to help some customers. I meet WallStreetGuy at Cheers. I hang out with the Stallion, but the sex is too rough and I get a throat infection. He tells me that the night of the Brooklyn party, I "made out" with someone at Cheers in front of him. I don't believe him. I feel sad that B and I are growing apart. My mom and I go to see Cavaleria Rusticana and Pagliacci. She tells me to look for a "nice boy." I resolve to be more of a bitch. VJ and I have a "girls night out." My stepbrother leaves the ICU and moves into long term care in Bayside.

Mar 13-19, '05

(March, 2005)

I tape Gitanas for NDN on TV. He meets VJ at my place and the three of us hang out. NDN and VJ go on a date. Narc and I exchange drunk messages. I do a day of research at the music library. I meet IronChef for dinner. The day before St. Patrick's Day, I kiss an Irish guy named Shay at Cheers. I meet some boys in a college band. Hammer confronts Prof PP about paying her for editing work. Sunshine and I talk on the phone for the first time. Narc calls and wakes me in the middle of the night. He says that he's having personal issues about a recent therapy session and confronting past traumas. I try to comfort him and he says "I just want you to come over here so I can come in your mouth." I ask him about masturbating in front of Anxious. He denies it. Anxious, Stallion and I go to a party in Brooklyn. She hooks up with BulgarianGuy back at my place. Hammer and I go to see Candide. I bump into DateRapeGuy and run away. My stepbrother regains consciousness.

Mar 6-12, '05

(March, 2005)

I get a lot of school work done. I bump into the FourthFloorGirls for the first time at Cheers since the fall. I meet the Stallion's friend. Hammer and I dye our hair. I go to see Downfall with Hammer and the Wizard. Anxious and I fight. I confront her for not telling me about the Narc-masturbation incident. B and I have a long emotional talk and a cathartic cry. The Stallion and I have sex again. Narc leaves me some drunk messages. I drunk text him, asking him if the fact that we're broken up means that "we can't fuck now and then?" I write "U know what I want and where to find me... ;)" I give midterm exams. Hammer and I see The Glass Menagerie for "culture night" and later that weekend spend a day at the public library.

Feb 27-Mar 4, '05

(March, 2005)

I try to deal with the Narc breakup. I email him to ask if it's reallyover. He tells me he "can't deal with the drama and crying fits anymore" and to "move on." I start my boxing class. We find out the extent of my stepbrother's brain damage. I meet up with the Stallion and bring him to Cheers. He sleeps over, but I can't stop thinking of Narc. I send Narc a drunk text.