Jan. 23-29, '05

(January, 2005)

I find my journal at Wikiki Wally's. The new season of 24 starts. I meet Sean Duffy at Manchester. Narc completely ignores my calls and texts all week long. It makes me very anxious. Hammer, the Wizard and I go to see Million Dollar Baby. I start the new semester and survive my first Friday teaching marathon. I flush my coke stash.

Jan 16-2, '05

(January, 2005)

I meet a guy staying at the UN hotel. We go to Manchester Pub for the first time. Later, he comes back to my place for some "medicine." Narc calls and convinces me to come see him. I do so, but he ignores me the next morning. I leave him an angry note. Bezoukhoff comforts me and dubs Narc "Raskolnikoff." Flash leaves me his first comment. B and I watch House of Flying Daggers. I go to BarMan's volleyball game in the snow. Narc calls to apologize and convinces me to come back. The next morning police burst in on us in bed. I meet Maeve at Manchester. I also meet the PakistaniMan who has a crush on me. Narc and I go bar-hopping on the Lower East Side. He tells me that he "adores me." I am totally in love with him. There's a huge snowstorm. I lose my journal.

Jan. 9-15, '05

(January 2005)

I come down with a bad case of the flu. Narc and I are awkwardly reunited. I try to get into "work mode."

Jan. 1-8, '05

(January, 2005)

I spend the week in Rincon, Puerto Rico, with Hammer and my family. No blog entries.