May 8-14, '05

(May, 2005)

I go out to Long Island for Mother's Day. My stepbrother starts to smile at people and offer kisses goodbye. He can take food on his own and draw circles. The Stallion comes over and the Elvis special is on TV. I send Narc a "Happy Birthday" email. He writes back. NDN gets a new job. Bezoukhoff and I sing through the Mozart Requiem. I feel depressed and to take control, I dye my hair black. I finally accept that my skinny jeans no longer fit me. NDN and I bump into FourteenthFloorBoy at Cheers. I see MarriedGuy at Cheers for the first time since last fall. Hammer and the Wizard spot Narc near the waterfront. I bring NDN to Lindsay's party. Jake comes to Cheers and then to Manchester with me. I confront DateRapeGuy and tell him it was NOT consensual sex. I call Narc and he invites me down. I tell him and CouchSleeper that my hair is black because he "broke my heart." Narc is physically intense with me.