May 1-7, '05

(May, 2005)

I have dinner with NV. Later that night, I get a visit from the Stallion. We hang out at Rudy's do lots of coke and plan to see his friend spinning downtown. He tells me that I'm "important to him," that I've "changed his life," that "I'm too amazing to be second place" and that he "loves me." We meet up with his friend Mike. I contemplate the "Personal is Political." I acknowledge that I'm a Dr. Phil addict. I bond with Judit, the Hungarian waitress at Cheers. Bezoukhoff gives me the Mercury dime. Bezoukhoff tries to show me a Russian movie and do the voiceover, but I'm too drunk for it to work. I'm obsessed with the Mozart Requiem and Jeff Buckely. PumpedUp says that I'm a "good girl." I start the practice of drunk texting myself. Narc texts me that he's going to "take the evening off from writing" and he invites me over. NDN kisses Hillary Clinton. IrishBird tells me she hopes I don't end up with a "broken nose." Narc and I have an awkward hang-out. He shows me his photos of the Exhibitionist. We have unprotected sex. NDN, Hugo and I go to Sutton Place. B and I go to St. John the Divine and later fight and make up. I meet my mom and sisters at the Middle Eastern restaurant for dinner.